What Do I Want Out Of Life?

 This, dear friends, is the question of questions. 

It occurred to me just now that I'm embarking on this new strategy to try and get my life back on track which is great, but then I also thought 'what the hell am I aiming for?'.

Can you begin a journey with no destination in mind? 

And why am I hearing this question posed in Carrie Bradshaw's voice?! No more Sex and the City DVD's for me. 

Let's have a crack at thinking this through. Although I have a feeling I could just end up with a whole load more questions than answers. 

Almost immediately it's hit me that what I ultimately want is to be happy. That's a great goal, right? Right. 

So then you have to define happiness. Which is near to impossible. Not only do we all have our own definitions of this but you also run up against the whole long term/short term thing. 

I think short term may be the way to go or I may end up causing some kind of cataclysm in the space/time continuum. Or something equally as pretentious. :-/

And now my brain is shorting out. Overthinking and reaching no definitive conclusion. Arse. So let's make a list of the things that I don't have now which I think will make me happy. 

1. Love. That's a given. It's a basic need/instinct for a human being to be in some kind of romantic relationship. The problem I have is that I've been single by choice for the last 4 years. Yep, 4 years. It's a long time and a habit that is deeply ingrained in me. Also, I'm the kind of person that thinks that love should happen organically which probably puts me in the minority in these days of internet dating sites and speed dating. 

2. Health. Both mental and physical. I'm kind of doing ok-ish with this one. I'm currently trying to improve both and I know it will take some time but I'm on the right track, just about a step over the starting line. 

3. Work. Needz a better job. Is being worked on. 

4. FUN!! This will be approached in a later blog as lots of fun is being planned for upcoming months. *coughMARScough* 

5. Positive attitude. Some of you will probably think that this should be under point number 2 but I kind of see it as a separate thing. I've done a lot of reading about the Law of Attraction (google it if you're not familiar) over the years and have tried to practice it whenever I remember to! It works particularly well for parking spaces when you're practicing at the beginning! Needz moar work. 


See what's happened here. With the exception of point number 1, things are actually already put in place. Things that I can work on and that I can have control over. Things that will put me in a better place.  

I feel better already. :)